In Oct, I see life and death. My Sec Sch friend, Humin, gave birth to a baby boy on Oct 10. My grandma passed away on Oct 27, 0055H.
I feel so sad to know that she is gone, forever... Although I expected it, I feel that I din do enough to accompany her. She is down with stroke for 2months in hospital, she can only drink milk thru tube, she can only lie dwn in bed, she can talk but as days passed, she became more tired and weak. She was discharged for 12D at home, but I only visited her on 1 weekend and the next weekend is in hospital and she left... Though is a relieve from her pain, I missed her so much. Though I dun really rem my childhood days I spent with her, I rem she treated all very good. Only when I moved to Punggol, I started chatting with her whenever I go back my Tamp. hse. I could have do more, chat more, visit her more often, etc. When she admitted to hospital, I started visiting her twice a week, then slowly became once a week, I feel so bad. On her last day breathing, I visited her in hospital, I could have stayed at hospital longer or stay overnight, I didn't. Now that she is gone, I see everyone in the family so separated/distant, it is realli very sad. Some quarrel over money, some didn't help out in the wake, some only care about themselves, some didn't visit her on her last day. What most saddening is, she was calling my name when she was at home, I was not there to hold her. On the last day of funeral, it was a hot afternn 2pm, the sky start drizzling all of a sudden, the aged said, she dotes us so much, that she made the ground cooler for us to step barefooted with the socks.
Now, though life still goes on, I feel something missing out. I dun realli have strength to work/do things.
I really regret. I just hope she is happier in the Heaven, blessing us.
